I’m ashamed

I’m feeling so terribly emotional lately, i cry so easily. I have so much pressure on me now, not any pressure that any regular you may understand. My approach right now its just to keep mum, avoid and avoid. I’ve grown numb to so many things i can hardly believe myself. It has made me feel so afraid at how vulnerable i can be. I’m tired, as well, from all the drama everybody has shown me. I’ve thought so much lately that thoughts begin to conflict with each other. I’ve begin to see two sides of the coin, i’m no longer on my own. My decisions affect so many people i have to make a wise one. Yet, the wait for me to make wise decision is so long and bitter i begin questioning again, why did i even begin this?